Posted by Felicity | Posted on 02:59 | Posted in
Taking a break from Second Life is hard for me. Now before you laugh, take some time to understand that for a lot of us Second Life is an addition. I have been there most of my adult life, forming relationships, creating an alternate existence, forming a family and running my store. I have thousands of pounds (£) worth of items in my inventory, none of which I will ever touch in my entire life, but somehow I am still drawn to buy more and I feel reluctant to pretend like these things never even existed. Being social in real life is hard for me, I suffer with anxiety and while this is not an excuse it doesn't help when I am trying make/maintain relationships. Doing the same simple thing via Second Life is much more simplistic, not because I chose to be someone I am not, because actually my avatars are just me but a bit more brave perhaps, but it's because I am able to control how much time I feel I have to give to people and I can log off and step back if things get too much... well... mostly. Recently my Second Life got to a point where it was the best it has ever been and then all of a sudden, due to me taking on too much at one time, spread between Second Life and Real Life it became a daily worry for me to even log in. Situations would happen that would probably not effect most people but they caused me to become very anxious and when I am anxious I over think and I talk the problem to death. Of course I started to talk to my Real Life boyfriend about this and while he likes to talk to me about my problems, he really hates Second Life and everything it does to me. Perhaps I am too soft, I don't know but I expect Second Life to be a happy place, somewhere to relax, to get away from Real Life. Letting it effect me (and my boyfriend) the way it has been recently was not fair to either of us and so for now I am doing what is right and stepping right back from Second Life and concentrating on Real Life. I have a daughter too and while I -Never- ignored her, I feel that sometimes I missed precious moments with her because I was too busy reading about drama on plurk, talking to someone on skype from Second Life or even logging in for what was only meant to be to check my messages and then getting distracted. Taking a break was the only real solution for me. I have family and friends on Second Life I could never leave and while there are other social medias to connect to people with, it is not the same. Aside from this I have my store and I love it, I have worked very hard on making my store the way it is and I didn't want that hard work to be for nothing. So from now until everything is a little more balanced and I feel I can come back I will be on rarely, spending time with my wonderful and very understanding SL daughter, sorting out things for my store or spending time with my close group of friends who I know won't give up on me just because I am away for now. Needless to say, this blog is on hold for now, but I don't have sponsors so hopefully nobody will be too upset. I -did- take two more beautiful pictures and I promise as soon as I am feeling up to it I will post them here, it's just the last thing I want to do when I log in right now is sit and take note of credits for an outfit, I'm sure you understand.
